No Need To Be Self Conscious

Self consciousness is pride manifesting in someone with low self-esteem. Have you ever met anyone totally at ease with themselves and comfortable with who they are? You can not embarrass such a person. It is almost impossible for someone with true and total self acceptance to become self conscious.

Self consciousness is fear. It is fear that I might do something or say something or that something may happen that will change the way that people think and feel about me in a negative way. When I become self conscious I am placing my focus on the wrong thing. It's time to remember that my center is supposed to be my Higher Power and not myself. It is time to remind myself that what others think of me is none of my business and is unimportant. My value and significance are not determined by how others see me and what others think and feel about me. They are not even determined by what I think and feel about myself. My significance and value are determined by what God says about me and thinks about me.

It doesn't matter if I am lower in status according to worldly measure. It doesn't matter that my past has the stink and look of a cesspool. My value is not determined by what kind of job I have, or if I have a job at all. It certainly doesn't matter what I look like or what kind of clothes I wear or what size, how decorated or how clean my house is. My significance remains based on the fact that my Creator loves me, cares for me and wants relationship with me, no matter what the circumstances in my life are. God doesn't even care if I trip and fall on my butt or spill a bowl of soup in my lap or anything else I could fear happening that would embarrass me in a room full of people.

The only thing that can effect my value to God is my level of willingness to be a servant. When I am extremely willing to be of service to others my value to God is higher than when I selfishly insist on only trying to serve myself and attain my own wants and desires. It's not that He values me any more or less either way. God's love for me is not effected by or determined by my actions and performance. It is that when I am willing to be used by Him to serve others, I am a more effective tool. If I am His hand in the life of someone He wants to bless and help, then I am more effective and of more value when I will move how and when He wants than I am cramped up and closed in on myself. My willingness to do what God wants me to do to serve Him and others is the only thing that is in within my control that can effect my value. So when I am living in willingness, I do not have to be self-conscious, I do not have to be afraid of what others may think of me. There is freedom in this. This simple truth is the secret answer to the question of how can I be more free by becoming a servant to another.

God, help me to remember and walk in this truth today. Help me to be a servant, and if and when I fail in some area, remind me that Your love for me is not determined by the level of perfection or performance in my life.